Sunday, June 1, 2008

I reaLLy doN't wanT tO Let gO~BuT....

yahh...i got the offer from NUS (National University of Singapore) for my dream course -- ARCHITECTURE.
You won't know how joyful I was when I knew it.
I don't know why,but I do have big passion in it...
I like it so much...I don't know how to express it in words
Last time, this course was really just a dream...a simple dream deep inside my heart...
I never know that one day I can get the offer successfully~ some more is from NUS, my dream university too ... the ideal university of many people too i guess...
now I've got the chance to get so close to my dream
but...god seems kidding with me~ ???
my parents don't allow me to go there~with the excuse of financial problem
trying hard to persuade them...have been talking with them many times~but they never think of changing their mind although just for one second
I'm not that kind of people who is good in speaking, whose words can convince people...
I'm not good in expressing myself at all...for that, I always hope that I can find some one who know me more than I know myself ^^
and some one who know what I'm thinking although I do not tell anything...(p/s : like this you should just seek for a psychic la =.=)
I know it will be the biggest regret in my life if I don't go for it...
I've put a lot effort in it just to strieve for it ...
Those who went for the aptitude test of NUS will know how's I feel.
Initially, I also doubted myself... can I handle it??
but i asked myself.... If I don't have the potential or ability, will NUS give me the offer???
and I get the answer... I can make it ~ I can do it !!!
I really feel so hard to let it go... It's so hard and painful to let go things you like~you and I will know how it feel...hate that feel !!! Awful @.@
YOU!!! ask me to let go because you are not the one who is going to undergo the painful path
I cant manage to persuade them... I've failed... LOSER
I know I wont get the chance back in future if I don't grab it now.
may be my mum is correct...as she said, I shouldn't have applied for it since the beginning.
now??? Just torturing myself
Is it my dream just a DREAM ???
will be vanished once I wake up

4 comments:

Më| §zë said...

please don't hate me for saying this, but i think you should let go. i know it's your dream, but if your family has financial problems, then you should help to solve them, instead of creating more. unless you can get a scholarship, which i really hope you get, cos to achieve your dream... i'm sure your parents are in a dilemma, wanna let you go, but not enough funds... and know that you are one of the best in malaysia, cos like you said, how many ppl can get offer from NUS?

jia you... wish you get scholarship and can go to singapore!

~* [STARR] *~ said...

i don't think you should let it go...
financial problems.. problems have solutions..
u can try convince your parents..
at least try to get a loan or scholaship that'll fund your education..
it isn't easy to get your dream course.. plus dream uni too..
the best will be that you got a scholarship.. but if u can't getting a study loan wouldn't be a bad idea either..
just try talking to your parents again..
tell them how you really feel..
communication.. try to let them understand..
remember.. not force them to accept your way.. but to persuade them.. by talking skillfully.. your tone of speaking shouldn't be too hard.. but try it softly..
don't make them decide against you as soon as u start talking..

*good luck.. i wish u well..

Justin Low said...

well i will give 2 diff opion...
lets start wit choosing to go...
parents always wants a confident answer for decision that you going to make... as for me... i tried quite alot time to persuade my father to agree wit me some others stuff... but most time, failed...
if you really fighting for your dream... prove that u really value it very much... there are alot and tons of scholarship offering around... why dont you go survey where you can get it? so reduce the supporting part of the family... if you dont take wise action , parents wont agree wit ya... others than scholarship, will be the loan taking... frankly, i dont really agree wit loan but as long u find a good one, i mean low interest one, it will be better... try sign agreement wit your relatives about percent of interest of loan, if they too scared to borrow... worst go bank take student education loan... or you can try go sg seek for any financial supporter...
last option if you wanna go is to talk with the institution in sg, about your family financial status... see what they can help you with that... singaporean accept expertise, they wont waste them... so you must value your self....


if you choose not to go.. then you have to face alot stuff along...
1st, dont hate your parents, as they have to think of whole family expenses... its not an easy job to maintain all expenses in a family.. most time v can agree what parents decision made, where may be they noe well about u, which means scare u really cant cope wit it... as gone somewhere far its not a easy thing to do...i mean grown and studies...
may b when you have problems out there... no one can help you as your parents not around you...
secondly, you can try love the course and place you study now...
make yourself really very comfortable there... when you feel its nice staying, you will feel better...
3rd, you can try forget about the offer you receive, its better to forget, as the more thinking of it cause more pain....

i think i can think of this much in short of time.. if you need someone to talk to, i willing to be your listener, as i used to be part time psycho listener...
have a nice day...

Unknown said...

i'm just passed by... i think you should not let go..
perhaps you can try to get study loan...
you should go for it.. is your dream...
wish u best of luck!